This is great. Ironically, being hyper-organized has helped me commit to many things at the same time and manage them well. It also gives space for spontaneity. Not perfect, but well. The downside of that is that your attention dwindles. You have to be switching tabs a lot. And you have to set realistic goals.
The demands of my life have escalated now that my grandmother and great aunt are both 90+ years old. Their needs and demands are being scattered around my mom, my uncles and aunt, and myself (the firstborn of my generation). As for me, I recently started re-engaging, re-taking my studies in Italian and Korean. To my desmay, I realized my current life doesn't allow me to engage in studying in a learning academia for 2 years and call it a day. It will be a long-term project. So, I will be taking some "emotional time" to process that this is going to be long-term, not short-term, and that I have to allow myself sufficient time to study. The key is that I go slow, but I should never stop.
So, yeah, after my ramble, I can humbly say that I resonate a lot with what you wrote.
This lands because it names something many high functioning people quietly struggle with. Modern life trains us to over attribute outcomes to personal control, so when reality inevitably resists optimization, it feels like failure. Letting go is a way of re-anchoring in a world that increasingly drifts faster than individual agency can keep up with.
This is great. Ironically, being hyper-organized has helped me commit to many things at the same time and manage them well. It also gives space for spontaneity. Not perfect, but well. The downside of that is that your attention dwindles. You have to be switching tabs a lot. And you have to set realistic goals.
The demands of my life have escalated now that my grandmother and great aunt are both 90+ years old. Their needs and demands are being scattered around my mom, my uncles and aunt, and myself (the firstborn of my generation). As for me, I recently started re-engaging, re-taking my studies in Italian and Korean. To my desmay, I realized my current life doesn't allow me to engage in studying in a learning academia for 2 years and call it a day. It will be a long-term project. So, I will be taking some "emotional time" to process that this is going to be long-term, not short-term, and that I have to allow myself sufficient time to study. The key is that I go slow, but I should never stop.
So, yeah, after my ramble, I can humbly say that I resonate a lot with what you wrote.
Hoping a safe delivery for your baby.
Thanks, Melissa. I can relate to the grandparent part. My grandfather is 92! Well said. More power to you.
The 12-step programs have a lot in common with the Stoics in my observations!
I can see that!
This lands because it names something many high functioning people quietly struggle with. Modern life trains us to over attribute outcomes to personal control, so when reality inevitably resists optimization, it feels like failure. Letting go is a way of re-anchoring in a world that increasingly drifts faster than individual agency can keep up with.
Well said.
Outstanding narration. Tx
Thanks for reading, Vinod.